Wonder-lost (performance piece?)

What is
Behind
the old and heavy locked doors
corroded and rusted shut
ashamed
ofallthethingsitneverknew
like
how broken we can be
how hard it is to see clearly
when we are hiding
behind so many doors
so many
old heavy (dead weight)
locked corroded (worn by time and weathered)
rusted shut (crumbling, encrusted and crammed enclosure)
Nailed as if
Nailed as if
Nailed as if
The sun could rise AND STILL
be unseen, unfelt behind closed doors
behind all those closed doors
all those closed doors
closed doors
doors
doors of fear
doors of hate
doors of anger
doors of identity
doors of shame
doors of Ino Awl
doors of Wudiph Ididnt
doors of Wudsbea Hindawl ThoZ doors
doors of Ifime Knot Bette R. Thanyu, Wudami?
WATCH OUT!
The floor YOU are standing on just gave way
you fall
and fall
and fall
You don’t know
what to do
who you are
who to call FOR HELP to find out WHOYOUARE
(If I don’t know who I am; how shall I proceed?)
(I don’t know what I need!)
(What happens when the falling floor STOPS
and there is no sound?)shhhh..
I WILL BE ALL ALONE
I WILL (TO) BE
I WILL (TO) KNOW WHAT TO WILL
I WILL TO KNOW WHO I AM
WHO AM I WHEN I AM ALONE
AND THERE IS NO SOUND
as if it is not nailed
as if it is not nailed down
as if it is not
as if I am not
as if I am not
But I am NOT not
I AM
I AM NOT not
I AM
BUT I AM
AND
I am NOT
me
How can I be
Not ME?
and me?